You may think that nobody cares of you, but you're wrong!!! Your lack of self-confidence doesn't help at all. To reach your goals in this life, you should believe in yourself. That is one of the best ways I know to be successful, to get your personal aims. Try to involve in what you do, try to be more active, promise yourself that no matter how difficult the problem is, you will try as hard as you can. Make the most of yourself! Optimism is simply a style!!! It affects positively in your health and helps you to face problems easily. Your self-esteem needs to be repaired. Your attitude needs a change, for instance. It's only to show your own ability. That's my opinion! Yours is important, of course! It matters!
I'm here to suggest that you take the happy face of life, the positive side. I am trying to help you. I'm giving you some advice, a practical recommendation. You ought to build confidence. You should go on and do your best! Any change of scene? Let me know if it happens! I personally think that something has changed. I know that you have made a significant progress so far! So, follow my advice and don't give up!!!